Something good can always come out from something bad

I always thought something bad IS something bad.

Then I realise that many good things came out from this bad thing.

So bad things aren't that bad after all?

I've learn to think about what I want, what I desired, what I aim for and living a life for myself.

Yes, myself. Not for other people.

Last semester I got my best semester grades, despite a hectic schedule from my very interesting japanese class.

I realised learning something that interest you, is really something.

Then, I chose the worst place to go to for attachment, and learnt alot from there. Of course, there were people telling me I am more suitable for research rather than work. Opinions of other people help you to reflect yourself better. I am trying out lab research soon.

Now, I am on my way to choosing a research topic that might possibly kill the life out of me. I already have no life, and once the research starts, I may end up with no life at all except my lab, my lab and my lab.

But no fears. I have decided that I will go for the annual bash, learn sign language(http://www.sadeaf.org.sg/sub/Sign%20Language1d_Schedules.htm), take malay classes at community centre during december holidays, go for driving lessons upon my graduation, wear contact lenses as frequent as I like so I look cuter in my new hairstyle and most importantly, to get better quality sleep everyday.

Of course, my ultimate aim--- to be what I want to be.

That may take some hard core revision, practices and self-improvement.

Self-improvement- learning the things I like, going for the things I like to do.

Revision and practices- revising again and again till my weak brain gets it, and ultimate goal is trying not to harm people.

Biggest obstacle at present- my family.

People I love most but hinder me most.

What should I do.

Finally I am half done!

Yeah, finally I am half done with my written report.

YEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Words cannot describe how I feel now. Done with the logbook, I am left only with the report. Report is easier to write.

These few days I've been forcing myself to write my logbook and report by luring myself with gifts upon finishing a part of it. After writing a page, I watch one episode of CSI. Haha!

I also force myself to study by fixing evening time to read my notes rather than hang around at the computer. I can't stand typing a report the whole day!

So it's something like this:

10am-11am Write report

11-12 noon Watch VCD

12-1pm Break time, do whatever I like

1-2pm Lunch and mop floor

2-3pm Write report

3-4pm Watch VCD

4-5pm Write report

5-6pm Bath and continue report writing

6-7pm Dinner

7-10pm Revision

10-12 midnight Watch TV, read books, listen to radio, go online and read blogs

Yes, it's unbelievable that I've been sleeping at 2am and waking at 10am. Somehow I can read better at night when everyone is asleep and there is no one bothering me. Like how my mom tries to talk to me while I am using the headphone to watch my VCD. Do you think I can hear her? No.

My plan: Since I couldn't finish my report by Sunday last week, I'll try to finish it by this Sunday then.

Hopefully I can study the whole of the next two weeks and pack my table and cabinet at the same time during break time from revision.

Ok, off to watch VCD!

Disgusted

Yes, that is the word to describe how I feel now.

First, with the downright rigid guidelines, I have write a lot of things in the form of answering questions. This is perfectly dumb because people like to look at things as a whole picture, not in details like who did this, who did that, but rather how it feels to do something, how you reflect upon an incident, what it inspires you to do.

You get my point?

Luckily, that is only one part of the work. I prefer to write an essay and talk about my thoughts and feelings rather than answer technical questions. Perhaps the questions were there to make sure I learnt something. But I think that's more applicable for academic stuff.

The worse thing is that I am going to be bombarded soon in 3 weeks' time. Yeah, it's holidays now. Like real.

Thankfully, I have all my friends out there supporting me in the form of interesting videos from youtube, vcds, books, origami papers, magazines and msn chatting.

I'll survive it.

Going through to a new phase

It's nice to feel that I am slowly evolving(is that the word? maybe transforming) into who I really want to be, doing what I really want to do.

It's never too late, you know.

Ikea...again!!!

Hee hee!

It's back to Ikea again!

This time to buy blinds for my balcony windows.

It's getting so hot there we need some blinds to block the sunlight before I get wrinkles from the UV rays.

Chrome plated steel

http://www.ikea.com.sg/products/product_display.asp?id=2450

 

I bought a set of 2 of these. Cool and nice, yet durable. Hopefully they can withstand my 10 kg hardcover book. Yes, I have a book that is 10 kg. I was lucky to have a free car ride the day I bought it.

 

Besides that, I bought this:

Steel, Anti-corrosive phosphate coating, Pigmented epoxy/polyester powder coating.
http://www.ikea.com.sg/products/product_display.asp?id=2449

 

More bookends! I bought 6 of these because the other bookend (shown earlier above) needed shelves to be fixed on. But this does not require shelves to stabilize it. Just put books and it'll be stable. There's 50% discount for these so I bought 6 of them!

 

We bought food as well! There's a nice kueh shop near Ikea so we walked there and bought ang gu kueh plus soon kueh. The kuehs are SUPERB!!!! MUST TRY! Sms me if you want the location of the shop hoho.

 

My mom also happily bought 2 slippers from a shop. I think we got into the shopping mode.

 

What a great day! We cleaned the windows and put up the blinds once we reached home. Too excited!

 

To sum up, the day was PERFECT!

Now time to eat supper! I need to gain weight! I went shopping the other day and the lady in the shop said that I am too skinny for her clothes! Sob!